Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Tuesday the 30th

I can't believe it's been a whole month since our wedding! I'm up about 5 lbs too-yikes! But I can't expect any different as I haven't been exercising or eating good. Been too busy with studying, packing, out of town at conferences & trying to close on the house!
Today's food:
B-Fiber one bar
L- lunch with a co-worker who I mentor-I hope I can be good
D- PB&J while I study again tonight

Still on track for a 4pm closing tomorrow-as far as we know! Keeping our fingers crossed.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Monday the 29th

I'm so excited this is a short week at work! Today was suppose to be closing day on the house but it got delayed as the paperwork isn't done yet. The bank is hoping to have it back from the underwriters so we can close tomorrow but I haven't heard yet. Say a little prayer for us! We have movers coming Friday morning & I have all day Thurs off work plus Friday off as the office is closed for the 4th. So we REALLY want to have closed by Wed afternoon!
*update* The bank has rescheduled the closing for Wednesday at 4:00-but they still done have the paperwork from the underwriters. So we should hear from them by tomorrow to know if closing is a go.

Food wise today:
B-Fiber One bar
L- smart ones
S- small piece of bday cake for co-workers 40th
D- ???? I'm going to study all night since Steve has class & I'm worried about how productive I'll be this weekend with moving.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Self confidence

I'm just needing to write to get my thoughts out there so you guys get stuck reading my random thoughts. Tonight I was studying for the CPA exam & started to get really frustrated with myself b/c I was struggling with the homework. I know most of my issue is I don't do well on a few questions & then start the thoughts "i'm not going to pass. i'm going to get a 57 like last time" etc
So how is it that I have self confidence in so much of the rest of my life but when it comes to the CPA exam I immediately feel like a failure? And I know that 90% of the exam is confidence in myself that I can do it. Anyone have tips they use when they are feeling down?
I know part of this week is PMS but I can get myself to tears quite easily when I get to this point when I'm studying. And I'm NOT a crying type of person. I started taking the exams in Aug of 07. I took the business one 3 times before passing, then took the tax one 3 times before passing, have taken financial twice (& this is the one I'm studying right now) and have taken the audit one twice. I plan to take the financial one july 20th & audit on aug 31st b/c its the last day of the testing window. then i'll have 1 more shot at financial & one more at audit before i lose scores b/c its been 18 months since i passed my first one. Maybe it's the time pressure I am putting on myself knowing I only have 2 shots left before I lose a passing score. Or the money b/c its over $250/test each time I take it. I don't think its the money though b/c we get a bonus when we pass & hopefully a raise.
I really just think its the time pressure & that I want to be done with it so bad b/c I feel guilty for studying all the time. I've been studying for the cpa exam ever since Steve has been with me. I don't know what its like to have free evenings to spend with him that I'm not thinking "you should be studying".
ok I'm not ranting...off to bed! Hope class goes fast so that I can get back to studying tomorrow night & be productive. See? I'm addicted to studying yet I suck at it? Whats up with that?? I'm so confusing... lol

Day 3 of training & very disappointing phone call!

Training was better than Monday but still not great. And at 4:40 I get a text from Steve saying that we can't close on house on the 29th like we'd planned. Apparently the loan people are running 3-5 days behind, our storm door isn't on (which has to be on for appraisal b/c of the type of loan we got), the builder had written down that we weren't closing until 7/15 (which was right until he was ahead of schedule & done early so the realtor & bank & head contractor on our house told me we close the 29th at 4pm.) Now he's not sure he has time this week to do the final walkthrough with us! I had taken monday afternoon off for closing & thurs off to finalize packing and we have fri off b/c of the 4th. Now they are saying it might be friday before we close-ok except we hired some movers to be there at 8 am fri morning to move all our big stuff!! oh the stress along with aunt flo in town this week & me not being able to have steve just hug me & make it all feel better is making me want to order 2 desserts from room service tonight. I'm doing the room service again rather than go out with the guys so i can study again. but now i just want to eat tons of chocolate & be whiny! :( I need to snap it together!!

Monday, June 22, 2009

Day 1 of training

Oh what a long boring day!
B- bagel, cream cheese & apple juice
L- chicken caesar salad
D- I'm going to order room service so I can study for my CPA exam better. My co-workers are going to a sports bar to watch game 1 of the college world series so I didn't want to rush them to come back to the hotel but I didn't want to not get any study time either.

Sunday, June 21, 2009


Morning weigh in 161.8
I leave for the conference in Champaign IL today until Friday night. I'm going to have lots of time to study & hopefully the food won't be too horrible. Should be fun at "tax camp"! :)

Lunch- PB&J sandwich, mini bag of fritos & glass of milk
S- shared some chips & salsa, a quesidilla & buffalo wing with my co-workers in Chicago airport on our 2 1/2 hr layover
D- 6 oz sirloin steak & some mac/cheese from TGI Fridays...oh it was good!

Friday, June 19, 2009

I did it!

I stepped on the scale this morning-it wasn't pretty 162.8. oh wow I know I had tator tots & sonic blast last night but yikes! next week will be tough as I have to go to Champaign IL for training all week. So it'll be eating out all meals all week...and since I won't have many distractions I'm hoping to get like 6 chapters of my studying done. The book has 20 chapters & I just finished Ch 3. It would be great if I could get Ch 4 & 5 done tonight & tomorrow & then to Ch 11 or 12 by the end of next week. Then I'd have 8 left for the last 3 weeks before I take my test. Oh pray for me...I desperately want this to be the last time I take the financial section of the CPA exam & then take my last Auditing section in August!

Food wise today:
B- Fiber one bar (150 cal)
L- smart ones rice & beans (320 cal)
S- fun sized butterfinger (85 cal)
D- bologna, cheese & light mayo sandwich, pretzels
S- glass of milk